How Weird Can You Be?!?

Confessions of a little chicken..

Confession:I have been guilty of stalking other people's blogs and I accidentally got on this woman's blog.Little did I know at the time that,by simply reading it,I would have had to consider myself automatically web tagged! Doh!I haven't actually been tagged, but so many of her blogpals have done this one and then gone on to say "consider yourself tagged if you have read this". So,tag yourself too,matey,if you are reading this!
THE RULES: Each player of this game starts with the ‘6 weird things about you.’ People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says ‘you are tagged’ in their comments and tell them to read your blog. This is all good,but I am so incredibly weird I am gonna struggle to find only 6 things to share with you - but I'll do my best...

• I make pretty decent pancakes but hate their smell and really can't stand eating them..so I make them for everybody else and never eat them..mmm
• My Italian literature professor once told my mom that she thought I was on drugs when I was 14 'cause I didn't use to wear make up or dress up fashonably(incredible but true!)
• I once thought that putting beer on my hear on the beach would have given my hair extra shine. The outcome was unfortunately quite disastruous:by the end of the summer my hair was bright carrot orange!! In hindsight I think I should have had a pint at the bar instead!
• I secretly enjoy cheesy chick flicks and have been known to occasionally cry to them too (like a baby)which,by the way,reminds me of my obsession for pregnant bellies..
• I won't eat eggs if people make references to chickens or goofily flap their arms and make chicken noises..I am such a freak!
• My parents found me with a boy in our bathtub together when we were 10...ops!Call it blissful ignorance and naivity,if you wish.

So is this weired enough for you or do you think you could do better?! Cayetana Altovoltaje, Baron Hashbrown,Jay, Rie&Tane, Neil and J-Mac --consider yourselves tagged!

Acrimony of a Passionate Word Lover

"Scrabble,the Gift of the Gab and Blue Eyed Injustice"

Now you guys have known me long enough to know that I love words. I can swim in a book, drown in a sea of words,I still secretly enjoy tv programmes such as Countdown and am always up for a game of Scrabble or Taboo...not to mention my blogging obsession.Call me 'saddo, but I love the way humanity has canonized random collections of letters and made them express emotions, states of mind, situations in almost every language. I thrive in searching, and eventually finding, the exact word I am looking for and, if the dictionary doesn't provide me with one, sure I'll make one up pretty swiftly (my mates know). Most of the time, because I am a "jolly foreigner", I even bluff so convincingly they believe it is a real erudite term and,for the sake of not embarrassing themselves in front of the rest of the group, shut up and nod in agreement...what a phony! (or maybe I should mention how polite and lovely my mates are to put up with my ridiculous accent and dubious vocab). Speaking of dictionaries, I have recently discovered this awesome online dictionary. It's "mint" as they would say in Salford. Its only downfall is that is an American website (no offence to my transalantic readers) which means that if you are after a definition of "colour" you are going to have to spell it "color" and so on... I don't like this story much, but I first learnt English from the Yankees and I would be an hypocrit to complain. All good and dandy until this morning I was looking for a synonym to the adjective "favourite", which I couldn't find, so I typed in "favorite" and the results were really quite shocking. Besides the expected "preferred", "best-loved" and "beloved" there behold appeared bizarre concepts such as "fair-haired" and "blue-eyed": what?! Where the heck did this idea of the angel-looking features become an idiom for sanctity, beauty and discriminating priviledges?! Besides, who the hell decided that angels are blond and blue-eyed?!This racist and frankly exploitative ex-colonialist ideal makes my skin crawl. Blame it on classical iconography? So what do you make of the wonderfully majestic South American black Madonnas? I rest my case cause I can feel my blood vassels swelling!!!

**To be Blog-tinued**

News on Mamma Morra...

Hey fellow bloggers,a brief update on my mom - she has just completed her second of six cycles of chemotherapy. She is such a darling,amazing woman of faith and in all her sorrow and pain she keeps on praising God and comforting every single patient on the ward - the woman is awesome! (after all, she is my mummy!!!) Despite the preannounced and inevitable side effects, she seems to be responding "surprisingly" well to the therapy.Thank you so much for your ongoing support and I would like to ask you to continue to pray for complete healing, competent and compassionate medical staff and sound roommates (last time she was in hospital she had to share a room with a loud-mouthed-ever-swearing old lady who farted so bad she would keep her roommates up all night..doh!;-) Ti voglio bene mamma.Get well soon!!!

To Be Bountifully Exhilarated About Life

Enough,enough,enough!Enough of bitterness,resentment, "what-ifs". I am tired of carrying another big fat resentful person over me and I choose life, and life to the full. This morning I was on my way to church, running late for no particular reason other than I have been feeling far too depressed for a young woman who has witnessed the beauty of life time and again and God's faithfulness far too many times to be counted..and there I was dragging the big-

fat bitter woman on my shoulders. I got into church and I was,in so many words,sad. Then Neil spoke about a number of things I can't really remember, but I can certainly tell you of the moment when the penny dropped for me: if Jesus was stepping in your shoes, what would he do? Now, we are not a particularly "wishy-washy" Pentecostal gathering and although normally the 'What Would Jesus Do' thing creeps me out a little, this was an honest wake up call for me. What the pastor was encouraging us to do was not to take Christ out of his chronological and sociological context to fit our own purposes. More so, it was an invite to examine our story in the light of Jesus' teaching. Like if you are struggling for cash, Jesus ain't gonna tell you which investment plan to choose or which bank to rob, but he would tell you not to panic and to live a little bit more care-less-ly in the certainty of his faithfulness,care and provision. So when it comes to my personal troubles, I guess he would encourage me to see the forest (instead of banging my head against all of its trees!), to consider all the good past that has happened,that is happening and that will continue to happen but more importantlyI think he would tell me to get rid of the big-fat resentful bitchy lady I have been carrying around and to begin to dream big dreams again,soar like the eagles and to be extravagantly happy. And,unlike the Baron Hasbrown seems to think, I am one to rise up to the challenge EVERY TIME - and here is the evidence: this morning I wore my do-gooder t-shirt at church!!! Hence I shall rise to the challenge to live like Jesus and be EXTRAVAGANTLY HAPPY!!!*(Oh, and by the way,taking these pictures by myself was hilarious - I reccomend this method as a stress relieving escamotage to everyone!)

The Persuit of Happiness

Running down the road against the freezing wind, I run and run to catch a bus I eventually missed. So I stopped, tried to recuperate my breath and initiated an expression of anger when an old man, dressed in rags, offered me a copy of the "Big Issue". I got my hand in my pocket grabbing those few coins, stretched my arm to reach his,close enough to brush against his coarse-purple looking hands. He was obviously cold so I went and got him a hot drink and something to eat. I am not writing this to make myself a super-hero, not at all. It is just that this small and apparently ordinary and insignificant happening, opened my eyes. The touch of my soft tiny warm hands on this elderly homeless person standing in the cold to make enough money to help him get by, widened the spectrum in my perception of my own circumstances. The running, the cheasing after the wind seem to have become a recurrent theme in my life recently. However, the stopping, the perceived failure, the slowing down, the change of direction is something that I had never taken into account as a desirable and necessary incident. I have spent my entire longevity seeking to be the best I could in every aspect of life. I have sought and tried and, although I have had a few recompenses, the pay-off as most frequently been what can be compared to a walk into a concrete wall, a slap in the face and the train of your life closing its doors and setting off into the sunset as you, dead-meat, stand still watching it go by. When this happens we, perfectionistic idealists, feel like as if the earth was going to open up to swallow us into a place of no return where the pain, although not much different from previous hurts, is too unbearable to allow the continuation of your existence. Last night I went to watch "The Pursuit of Happyness" with Will and Jaden Smith. To me it is a 9/10 movie, definitively worth watching. Masterly directed by the brilliant Gabriele Muccino (The Last Kiss; Remember Me) tells the real story of Christopher Gardener who, without going into too much detail ('cause this is so worth watching), teaches us a massive lesson about what happens to the "goodies" in our society:they are doomed (or appear to be anyway). However the whole story is a running because, as the protagonist narrates, "Jefferson must have been a clever guy to put 'the pursuit, bit attached to the right to happiness in the declaration of Independence". You see happiness doesn't come into microwavable-meals-style-packages. Not even Jesus said that if you would have followed the instructions and done good you would have received all you ever wanted (so much so that in the Beatitudes it is the poor and the afflicted who technically are the most blessed!!!). You know what stuff like this makes me want to carry on. Carry on doing good, carry on giving life your best shot, carring on seeing the good in humanity, carry on loving unconditionally 'cause even when you are perceived as doomed, the running towards coherence, honour and Love are worth the pursuit of happiness.

Ice Hockey,Cheesy Music and Manly Bonding

Last night we travelled all the way to Nottingham for an Ice Hockey match between our local team, the Manchester Phoenix and the home team, the Nottingham Panthers. The two teams are supposedly in high places in the British league (the Panthers are third and the Phoenix fifth but they are four game short of the other team) - this information is for Jay and yes,also to 'show off' a little and to let my mate know that I was actually listening to what he told me last night! I wish I could show you the picture of me wearing the team's shirt -when I had never even heard of them and I had played ice hockey about once in my entire life!!!(hypocrit? or was I just going for the FULL EXPERIENCE?!) The game was not that good - the Panthers slaughtered the very demotivated Phoenix, but the atmosphere was exhilarating. It was definitively a stress-relieving adventure and an experience that I would love to repeat. Thanks to Mike, Alan and Dave for taking me out. I had a great "man bonding" time - despite Mike's debatable taste in music! And let's hope that my analogy of the Phoenix will do better than our local team last night (5-2...doh!)

Non,Je Ne Regrette Rien!

When I was four my parents brought back an antique XIX century grammophon from one of their frequent Parisian get-aways. Although by that stage we already had LP vynil players and tape recorders (brings to mind this post about "Feeling older than we should"),this stylish looking old music box,was real box of delights. Maybe because the only discs we had for it were either classical or 30's French music, every time the grammophon was playing our living room would be transformed into an aristocratic Tzarist-era style ball room where imaginary cortesans and gentlemen of noble origins would dance elegantly at the sound of steady walzers and intellectual Bohemian artists converse intensely sitting in the sun on a cold afternoon outside a cafe in Montmatre like as if they had just stepped out of a Van Gogh or a poster by Tolouse Lautrec. My imagination has always been allowed to run wild! It is around about that time that I was first introduced to the magnific Madame Piaf, a real icon in French music. We all have heard chansons as "La vie en Rose" and "Je Ne Regrette Rien" - well, she is the rapturing voice behind them! I often think of my life as a movie in progress with flashbacks, crucial points, soundtrack and all. And, at moments like this especially, there are songs and sounds which accompany me through resounding in my head. "Je Ne Regrette Rien" is one of those at the moment. When your dreams are shattered, it is inevitable to feel feelings of dispair and resentment whereby one regrets past actions, emotions and situations. However, I am there with Edith Piaf: "The good and the bad I shall not regret; I will put the pieces together and start again!" Here is a rare performance of Piaf singing this song (courtesy of YouTube) and at the bottom are the lyrics and its litteral translation. Enjoy.

Non! Rien de rien ...
Nothing, nothing at all

Non ! Je ne regrette rien
Nothing, I do not regret anything

Ni le bien qu'on m'a fait
Not the good you have done to me

Ni le mal tout ça m'est bien égal !
Nor all the bad that is also good!

Non ! Rien de rien ...Non ! Je ne regrette rien...
C'est payé, balayé, oublié
It is paid for, swept off, forgotten about

Je me fous du passé!
I have been through

Avec mes souvenirs
With my souvenirs

J'ai allumé le feu
I have lit a fire

Mes chagrins, mes plaisirs
My sorrows, my pleasures

Je n'ai plus besoin d'eux!
I don't need them anymore!

Balayés les amours
Vanished the love

Et tous leurs tremolos
And I shake all the time

Balayés pour toujours
Sweep off every day

Je repars à zéro ...
I am start again from square one…

Non ! Rien de rien ...Non ! Je ne regrette nen ...

Ni le bien, qu'on m'a faitNi le mal, tout ça m'est bien égal !Non ! Rien de rien ...Non ! Je ne regrette rien ...Car ma vie, car mes joies
For it my path, for it my joys

Aujourd'hui, ça commence avec toi !
Today I start with you!

What Doesn't Break Us, Makes Us Stronger

I believe that the strength of every culture is found in their ideals, values and wisdom. I think you become part of a foreign culture when, not only do you embrace their life-style, but when you are able to recognise a common humanity in their proverbs and sayings. Pretty much every one who knows me is straightforwardedly made aware of my bubbliness, happiness and permanent smile on my face (yes,even first thing in the morning -- annoingly so!) but what can I say: I love life and I rejoice in such a gift! That's probably the same reason why when things go wrong for me they are always unexpected and ferociously painful. You all know by now that this past wee while has been a trying time for me (my mom's illness, the house on fire,etc..) but what do the English say: "Bad Things Always Happen in Three"?Well,guess you could say that I have had my three and my heart is shattered in pieces so tiny that even breathing seems to hurt. Yet there is a song resounding in my head on this astonishingly sunny blue-skyed day - Bruce Springsteen's version of "We Shall Overcome"(click on the link beside,it's awesome)...this 'heavenly, sound is resounding in my ears and my mind bringing me a comfort I did not expect to find, and making me believe that, in as much as I am hurting like crazy, I shall rise from the ashes like, as Ovid would have said, the Phoenix.
Last night I went to watch ROCKY BALBOA VI with a bunch of lads. What can I say: I love Rocky!Partially because I used to watch it secretly with my dad when I was little (it was our father/daughter bonding time..not really my mama's scene!), partially because he is a man who still stands for honour and good values. In Rocky 6 Rocco gives a rather profound metaphorical speech to his son in his predictably cheesy style. Please,don't judge me,but I was touched (awwww). Rocky says, "It ain't about how hard you hit,it is about how hard you get hit and still get back up and keep on moving forward". The journey to self re-discovery and recuperation is a troublesome one (hell,I know!) after a few train-in-motion-kissing punches in the face, one must look forward, aim not to miss the forest for the trees and retrive the beauty within. What doesn't breaks us, makes us stronger indeed.