Tuesday, May 22

Ho Voglia di Te - The Update You Have All Been Waiting For

A brief phone call, the sound of what used to be a familiar voice and it's like as if time had never passed. Ten years, whatever stage in life you may be at, it's a long time. When we were last together, his little sister was only three. She is now a teen-ager. When we last were together, we used to think the Spice Girls were the next big thing. At the age of thirteen, everything seems like a major struggle, a drama. You think that your greatest achievement will be to get out of high school, yet you dream big: senselessly and fearlessly. You think that you know what real love is. I think you do; I think that when you are thirteen you know a lot more about emotions than most people would give you credit for - it's just that that wonderful little butterfly is bottled up in a glass jar by hormonal tempests, inexperience, youthfulness. Ah, to be free like a thirteen year old again, but with the experience of a 24 year old! I think this is just what happened to me yesterday. A brief phone call, the sound of an all too familiar voice made me feel emotions I did not think I could feel ever again. We talked for quite a while and I felt happier than I have been in quite sometime. In my previous relationship, I was always trying too hard to impress this un-impressible man, thus forgetting myself, the real me, the things I love, the person I want to be; I was on the phone to this wonderful person from my past and I suddenly felt like a re-invigorated, spring butterfly who is no longer afraid to show her true colours, her true self. It was a wonderful symphony. It was easy and beautiful to be me. I even wrote a small poem about the revitalizing emotions of the past few days. I felt like poetry, beauty, sunshine, laughter, wonder. At the sole thought of this wonderful young man. To the point: I only managed to get through to him the day before I left - he was all and beyond I thought he would have become, well on his way to making his childhood dreams come true. Unfortunately, we couldn't meet, but we parted with a lot of joy and the prospect of seeing each other again next time I am home in a few weeks time..."Ho voglia di Te", is the title of an iconic teen-age novel and homonymous Italian movie by Federico Moccia. It literally means "I feel like you", "I have a desire of you" sort of. Self explanatory?!

Tiziano Ferro, "Ti Scattero' una Foto"(Nessuno e' Solo) from the movie "Ho Voglia di Te"

14 comments:

Brian Heasley said...

thanks Ivonne, great post, It made me think about 13 again, I even thought Duran Duran were cool back then

Mimo said...

Haha, my fave was Bon Jovi when I was 13.. NKOTB was when I was 10 (I thought I was going to marry Joe McIntyre! HA!) Anyways, great pic! Oh, and maybe then we have more update no the subject in a few weeks time..? ;) Love! M

Cayetana Altovoltaje said...

¡¡Qué emocionante!!
You HAVE TO meet with this guy when you go back to Italy. Oh but then will you ever come to visit me in Spain? ;)

Fever Dog said...

It's funny, if I could go back I would tell the 13 year-old me the wealth of knowledge I have at 26: ignore the girls. Forget them. None of the girls I think I love or think are wonderful at that age or whatever are worth a moment's thought. Instead, do your damn homework. Listen to music more, write about music. Read more. Either that or learn to ride a skateboard.

But I've got fingers crossed for you and your boy-love.

Funny thing, hearing about someone ten years on who is fulfilling their childhood dreams...makes me feel like a failure.

Ivonne said...

Jay: Mine and this guy's dreams are only just beginning to take shape after heartbreaking mistakes, wrong choices and a lot of humility to start afresh, keeping the dream lead us. You are not a failure if you find the courage to get up every time you fall.

Anonymous said...

So lovely and romantic! (Swoon...)
I hope your boy is all you hope him to be, and that your story has a happy ending.

Gorilla Bananas said...

That's lovely. I'm so glad for you, Ivonne.

Tanya Heasley said...

If there's a wedding, can I come?

Sorry I know that's a bit premature, but I love weddings.

Ivonne said...

Brian: I feel chuffed I made you all feel 13 again! The summer breeze on smiling young faces...ha..

Mimo: Bon Jovi was still a huge name in my teen-age years, I used to love him (secretly, still do!)

Cayetana: How about we came together to Spain?! (wink, wink)

Jay: Cross your little toes too - I am gonna need it! ;)

GB: You are so empathetic all the time, thank you!

Tanya: uey, uey! Hold your horses, lady!! Indeed I can't hear the sound of distant wedding bells quite yet (even though even when we were teens we had people asking us to name our kids after them and to be invited at future weddings!!!) - I hereby make you a solemn promise: if I ever end up marrying my childhood sweetheart, count yourself already invited!!! (",) Lol!

Anonymous: I wish you revealed your identity - kind words like those need to be attributed to a likewise kind writer. Cheers.

Baron Hashbrown said...

YEY!!! Great post Wee Chick. That is so Hollywood rom-com, to get in touch after all those years and then have to leave the country without meeting. I would patent the movie rights straight away! Next thing we know he'll be turning up on your doorstep with a bunch of flowers! Oh but there needs to be a slightly tradgic twist which will all be sorted out by the final credits... So, Monica Bellucci and ummm who is the Italian equivilant of Hugh Grant?

Baron Hashbrown said...

Ha! Got me in such a fluster I put a d in tragic and completely forgot how to spell equivalent!

Ivonne said...

Baron: Come on it's my life we are talking about - gimme some credit!..it ain't all cheese!!! How about Raul Bova for the leading male role?! Hunk alert! ;)

Ivonne said...

Alternatively, Baron, Riccardo Scamarcio who, coincidentally,is the protagonist of "Ho voglia di Te" and in another movie with Mrs Bellucci (Manuale d'Amore 2)- both equally hot!(though Mr Bova is in a category of his own)!!! and I could go on and on and on...

Baron Hashbrown said...

When it comes to 'hunks' I'm afraid you are speaking a foreign language. I'm really pleased that you sound like you're back in the happy hills though!